The start of something new.

I have often asked myself how long it would be before I start to forget my little kid memories. When I learned to ride a bike or when daddy taught me how to swim. Or even when mom worked her butt off to get me a Easy Bake Oven that I used only once or twice. Then I questioned wether or not we have enough pictures of the family to look back on. So instead of spending all my time thinking about things; I decided to take care of them myself. With blogging about day to day things and posting pictures, I will always have something to look back on..our family will. That brings to the point of my first blog, growing up. When I was younger I would constantly say, "I cant wait to drive and get away from the house and be on my own." I couldn't have been more wrong with those words. Now I wanna run back to barbie doll and dress up clothes. Instead of dealing with running my barbie jeep into a ditch, I have to worry about running a car into another car. Instead of worrying about when I was gonna see my best friend these days I have to worry about how long im gonna have my best friend. As I have grown older I have had to deal with the realities of life and the horrible reality of death.And through all of this I know that I haven't even gotten close to the difficulties of life. These days the thought of being away from mommy and daddy in a college all by myself scares me. The thought of getting into a car behind the wheel scares me. Change scares me. And through all of this, it has brought me to realize bigger issues for me. Not only am I growing up but my baby sister and my baby brother are too. How much longer will my sister not wear make up? How long will my Bubba call me Bubba? It seems like just yesterday Bubba was born and Beth was losing her first tooth. I have grown up being motherly towards my siblings, therefore them furthering in life just scares the mess out of me. What happens when Beth is on her own? Or Bubba goes to High School without me? I never realized what my parents go through everyday. I just wanna lock Beth and Bubba in a box and keep them there. [I know that sounds creepy, not meant that way.] I don't Beth to have to deal with the pain of her first heartbreak. I don't want Bubba to have his first girlfriend. But then that brings me to realizing..that this is life. Its reality and its all gonna happen. So I need to enjoy it and make the most of it. Thats why I am blogging, to keep every important moment I can and to remember everything. So I leave you with this, take your time and enjoy every second you have. Love without holding back, jump into things that scare the crap out of you, laugh until you cry and cry until you feel better. And most importantly do all of this, with God in your heart. Making every moment for him.