As 2010 came to a close, I used a lot of that time to reflect, to reminisce. The good, the bad, the worse and the greater moments all flashed into my head.
The biggest part of my year? My family. My family fell to pieces and in a few short months, glued itself back together to create a newer stronger image. I rebuilt relationships that I thought had burned to nothing. We have endured things together, not on our own but together. I couldn't ask for a better miracle that I know God made happen. It was our trust in him that put things how they are supposed to be.
The hardest part of my year? I lost two people who were very dear to me in 2010. I had finally realized that fixing that hurt wasn't quite like how my family came back together. As their memories come into my head.. I smile, with happiness that I got to know two such great people. I smile knowing that again someday I will embrace them in heaven. I smile knowing that they have touched and changed me. I smile knowing that they are alive in my heart. I smile knowing that I am happy to remember their memory but I smile, with a little bit hurt because yes, I am human. But I still smile.
The part of my year that was most unexpected? I damaged a few relationships sometime this year, I made a few mistakes and I picked a few wrong roads to travel down. But none of this was done with regret. All of this is now apart of me and I have great memories from. Even if these were memories from a week or two months.. they are good memories. I learned a lot about myself in these situations. I learned that when things come back in your life, its for a reason and when things leave, its for a reason. I took a chance with a lot of things I did but these things taught me that I should always hope for the best and absolutely expect the worst.
The things that happened in 2010 that will continue to follow me into the rest of my years? As I said, the rehabilitation of my family. And to add to that, the relationship that I have built with other people. Wether its from Teacher Cadet, the two idiots [I say that with love] who sit beside me in Civics, or even the people in my Spanish class..I have met so many people and continued to grow friendships with those who I already knew.
2010 went out with a bang with the people I most love. I sat around the room looking at everyone smiling, laughing and I couldn't thank God more for the people who he has placed me around. And I end with saying, I hope 2011 can bring more unhappiness for me to grow strength with, great memories with the ones I love the most, plenty of pictures to look back on, building new relationships, repairing old relationships and enjoying the people around me that I love and all of this while I am walking through life with the love and guidance from my God.
